This always happens.
I go to the doctor, knowing, as I did today, that I have a sinus infection. This one is a whopper, a horrible, painful, miserable, ear-popper. Moving my head is agony. Blowing my nose, worse, and of course I only have to blow my nose oh, every forty-seven seconds. Plus, you really don’t want to have a sinus infection if you’re going to change altitude by 600 feet or so a couple times a day, and here, that’s just what we call doing the school run.
I. Am. Miserable.
And so I hied me off to the doctor, who proposed that I might just be getting a sinus infection! Maybe it was just a baby sinus infection! And maybe proper use of OTC medicines would just nip that puppy in the bud! Just in case, though, she gave me a prescription for an antibiotic.
I was feeling just a tiny bit better at this point, probably all the amazing adrenaline from actually getting out of bed and driving to the doctor, and I agreed. Clearly this was the best course of action! I do not want to contribute to the greater antibiotic resistance of the world. I want this puppies to work when we need them!
So I popped into CVS, and I bought the OTC stuff she recommended, and then I thought, well, I COULD just fill the prescription. Just in case.
But she was so nice not to make me call tomorrow and beg for it. She trusted me. And–antibiotics! Resistance! The end of the world, plague, flu, dogs mating with cats, really wild things!
Plus, what if she checked? To seen if I’d done it? They would surely put a mark on my permanent record, and never, ever let me have a prescription again, probably not even if I really needed it.
So I didn’t do it. And now I feel awful. My head is going to explode, right after both of my eardrums pop, and I will never hear again. And the store is half an hour (and 600 vertical feet, maybe more) away. But no, I am stuck with giving the OTC stuff an unwilling chance.
Sometimes I really wish I wasn’t such a good girl. Or maybe it would be more accurate to say I wish I wasn’t so paranoid. Because if I was 100% sure she’d never know, I’d be clutching those antibiotics right now.